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13.01.2012

2012-01-13T14:34:00.004+08:00

Changed new layout for welcoming the new year, and also the coming cny.

Spring, a season that I like the most even though I cannot experience here in Malaysia.

Well, just managed to get done with all the CNY shopping yesterday.

Women, which word is best described other than "shopaholic"?

Nice mood get spoiled when you meet problems but cant be able to solve it right on place.

Things really get messed and more complicated when comes to registration thingy.

Especially room reservation

Why the person in charge din't inform me that the application failed?

What if I din't call back to confirm about availability?

Haiz..

My study leave for 2 days also haven settle.

Suddenly hate that I am studying so far from my hometown.

You wont be able to do anything, just sit there keep calling, sending emails.

What else?

Course registration some more, MS cannot take.

What else can I take?

Just 3 subjects?

O.o

Sure I will be relaxing and start banging the walls days before the tests.

Too free bah..

Physically prepared to go back UTP

But how about mentally?

:-*

2012

Just pray that I can live it simply with happiness.

No nostradamus please!

二十几岁的迷惘

2012-01-12T01:31:00.001+08:00

又过了一年，人就是那么的奇怪。小时侯恨不得快快长大，可是过了20岁生日，却开始希望每一年的生日不要那么快到来。我的二十一岁旅程，暂时只能以安稳两个字来形容。可是，现在我给自己一年的时间，去达到我从小就希望完成的一件事。成功率不是百分之百，但也不是毫无可能。前提是，如果，世界末日没有来临的话。或许只有这样做，我才能找回我一向缺乏的，却又很难建利的--自信。冲动是有了，可是把这股冲动持续下去的毅力，就得靠自己了。二十几岁的迷惘，是每个人都会有的，也只会有那么一次。如果说二十几岁是人生最璀璨的时段，那我也只有努力让这份光芒持续闪耀，因为，青春不留白！ :)

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4.12.2011

2011-12-04T03:24:00.005+08:00

Hiiiiii...

Finally I wrote something here.

In the previous 2 months my life has been filled with lots of tasks to be done.

Driving license test passed.

I am glad that I took the test once only.

Oversea trips done.

That particular 10 days really opened my eyes to see the bigger world outside.

Among those 3 places, I would rather to choose to stay in Macau

as the life there is much more simpler and not as stressful as HK ppl do.

I am planning for the next journey to Taiwan

First step of course is saving money first.

How long has been since the last time I still stay awake at 5am?

Last time was for revision purpose

but this time

just want to keep this blog updated a bit.

Too long holiday life made me almost forget that I am still a student.

and

I start to miss UTP dy..

Quote of the day

2011-09-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

"It's tough when someone special starts to ignore u but it's even tougher when u have to pretend that u don't mind!"

Ouch!

This quote exactly suit my mood now.

Especially when too many input being forced to feed into ur brain but yet u not sure how many output will be execute out during the right time.

but still have to handle with this kind of feeling

This feeling is kinda depressing.

越来越发现，人与人相处在于利用价值的情况比较多

张小娴说：

“我心情不好就巧克力一下，心情好就巧克力兩下。”

我现在好想吃巧克力

极为苦涩的那种黑巧克力。

第一天--第一次觉得图书馆一点都不冷

@.@

Study week??Or?

2011-08-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

Instead of study week,

I think I spent most of the time on cooking

But I enjoyed because cooking is one of the way for me to release my stress

Just one side effect from that

my sensitive fingers will get itchy when in contact with garlic

tended to scratch it every night before sleep

that's the reason why my mum din allow me to cook for the past few times

but luckily i got the cream sent by my mum using postlaju last time

if not I have to wear gloves to cook

i am not that十指不沾阳春水type of girl

ok sounds a bit ss liao

T__T

I hope to learn bakery skills next.

2 more days before I can really hibernate in IRC

I miss all those time struggling there.

S.T.U.D.Y

exactly one more week to my 1st paper.

Gosh...

Decision to make

2011-08-24T19:51:00.003+08:00

Today is the day full of making decision.

Rejected as Secretary Faci for Sept 2011 intake

My heart still bleeding leh~

Wanted to get that post for so long dy but now have to reject because I need to go home.

My emo-ness cured until I received the email with good news.

Just applied this morning but never thought of receiving the reply in the evening

So efficient le that company.

Another decision to make

Admin clerk/trainee

Mechanical Engineering trainee

Shipping and logistic trainee

Quality control/ISO standard trainee?

Personally interested in Meche trainee and ISO standard trainee

but both need to work in shipyard.

How is the environment to work in shipyard?

I dunno..

@.@

Should I work and just goyang kaki in office?

or should I learn how to "chi ku" and work in shipyard?

Tried call to ask for further details but no one pick up the phone.

Yeala now after office hour liao of coz..

@.@

Hope can settle everything by tomorrow ba~

Life is all about making decision,

I hope I will make the right one

Food hunting in Ipoh

2011-08-22T23:24:00.003+08:00

Out of sudden

just came back from food hunting in Ipoh~

Our original planning was having dinner at Kampung Bali for Nicholas' bday celebration.

But then we heard from friends that Keng Hiong's taukeh is going to treat free dinner.

So we join the occasion as well :P

3 cars who carried me, PY, MK, Nic, Dvd, SSL, Wanlin, Karen, Ciayin, Yitong& Eddie

Can conclude as cheme outing la

Maybe this is what people called FATE

last Friday after CPDC test we planned to have dinner at GP food court in Ipoh

but at the end we lost so we just randomly chose nearby food court.

Tonight finally we had the chance to taste the delicious food at GP.

The curry noodles was so spicy but it taste really great!

After that we were chit-chatting with the taukeh

listened to his story

next we moved on to drink Ipoh White Coffee somewhere in Menglembu or Kledang~

We almost lost but finally still get to the right place.

Tried the fried cha sao bao.

Never think of cha sao bao can be fried d lo.

Another round of yumcha+"choi shui"

The taukeh so nice, really nice.

Treated us all the meals and shared many stories with us

Actually today is his birthday as well.

Haha~

Too bad

I forgot to bring the camera

Next destination

Jogoya@KL tomorrow!!!!

woohooo~~~

Gonna eat eat eat until stomach BURST!!!!

Stay tuned ^^

20/8/2011

2011-08-20T19:17:00.004+08:00

Hectic week ended with 2 tests.

Now I am done with all the tests for this semester.

What left is just ETP final report and one more assignment.

Officially entering study week for final exam which will be commenced starting 7th Sept.

Still half month to go.

Just a random thought of going home for study week

but i know it's impossible so just forget about it

T.T

I declare today as a "movie spree" day since I got so many series to watch!

One of them is... Galileo!!!

Wooohoo finally get it from my friend!

Wanted to watch this series long long time ago dy..

I just cant get my eyes off from watching all those detective series, anime and books!!

~Cool pose!~

It has been a whole day raining non-stop since morning until now.

Jogging and badminton plan canceled due to rainy day

Haiz~~

I need to get out from here.

Too bored.

And,

I miss bowling.

p/s: I need to get off this feeling because I just have to. >.<

Friday night -T.G.I.F

2011-08-12T21:08:00.004+08:00

It's Friday Friday Friday...!!!

Like..finally it's Friday!

Phew~~

One test, probably the toughest- Reaction Engineering subject is down! :D

eh no, should be Transport Phenomena the toughest

>.<

I bet our batch is the most "bekerjasama" batch especially during test time.

What happened in main hall just now shown how united we are :P

Went to Secret Recipe (again...??) after the test

I think now Secret Recipe is not something that I am craving for

when you can get something easily,

you tend to not appreciate it.

One more good news: in the future, I hope probably by next year

There will be a shopping mall and Tesco available in Bandar Seri Iskandar and Taman Maju!!!!

Wahhhh~

No need go Ipoh for bowling or McD liao :D

Just finished the things that I planned to do, in just within 1 hour

faster than what I expected

I thought I am gonna spend whole night doing it.

So...what to do now?

Tomorrow then only I study for coming 2 tests can?

My brain cant function anymore right now.

Oh ya...

might be going to KL for Jogoya in next 2 week!!!

Gonna eat eat eat until my stomach explode!

Just a random thought,

want to learn a new skill in coming 4 months break

Most interested in bakery, making cakes and bread

Thanks.God.It's.Friday!

Enjoy ur weekends ppl!

Random Sunday night

2011-08-07T21:43:00.006+08:00

I have my very own way in motivating myself.

Whenever I feel very pekcek on study, on something or on someone.

I tend to express my feelings by google search on some pictures that related to my current mood.

Then,

I found all these just now.

First,

told myself to CHIONG~~!!

then, I tell myself to keep on study, study and study...

even though pening pening laio @.@

Telling myself to calm down

Holding my head and try to close my eyes

listening to radio

both DJs are crapping a lots actually

>.<

But they did make me feel better

Next, telling myself to start over again

Fighting!

This is what I used to aim

I was wrong.

Aiming for perfection will make you even stressful!!

Believe me that I ever tie a banner written "Jia You" on my forehead!!

Hahahahahahaha~
Wanan find back my passion or so-called FIRE in me!

You try, at least you get something

If you didn't, you get nothing.

Action is always better than waiting!

So here am I

Continue shouting Jiayou~~!

Don stress don stress

reward myself a piece of Secret Recipe cake on this coming wed during my pasar malam trip

Awww...

How good if I can go McD and study at there?

>.<

P/s: If I am good in drawing using software,

then I will create my own pictures just like the one in above! :)

5/8/2011

2011-08-05T21:01:00.003+08:00

Finally weekend is here :)

Now I can officially say I am almost done with ETP!

Just need to submit the final report.

Din't manage to get into SEDEX.

Not really sad because it under my expectation dy.

Now I can really focus 100% on studies

Test 2 will be coming after next week!

>.<

One more thing to consider

sacrifice my 4 months break working at PJ

or go back hometown?

Maybe I should just communicate with p.i.c from that company first

if the offer is nice

I think I am gonna take it.

Someone said I no need take driving test la

find future husband who knows how to drive enough

T.T

Hope I can get offer in Sarawak too la.

Then I definitely will accept

I want to experience the real working life

I don't mind kena marah by boss

I don't mind work overtime

Promise that I can utilize my holidays

and earn money..!!

$.$

Too many wishlist to fulfill

Hohohoho~

3 more weeks to go before study week!

Lalalala time to hit the books!

One day before PreSEDEX

2011-08-02T19:31:00.004+08:00

Finally get the prototype 100% done.

Our prototype is basically fully on mechanical aspect

since we don have any EE member in our group.

Feel envy to see all those other people who is dealing with EE stuff,

while I was helping out in the lab.

Anyhow we did our best already

and tomorrow is the day we present our idea and prototype.

I dono whether the judges will like it or not

Our SV said it is understandable because we don have EE member,

so she is satisfied with our prototype already

but...I still remember she said she would like us to win gold medal for her..

what if we didn't manage to do so?

Can we still get A for it?

>.<

is it possible for a mechanical-based project to compete with all those "gempak" EE projects?

I am doubt with it but if me myself don have any confidence towards our project,

how can you expect others to like your project, right?

Expect the worst, hope for better.

ETP Group 43

I did enjoy working together with you guys.

Good luck for tomorrow presentation!

time to brush up PCS skill...

LOL

tomorrow at 2.15pm, just impress the judges with our prototype

I bet no one will ever think of that idea....

hahahaha

Gambateh ETP Group 43! :)

Hello August

2011-07-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

August is coming soon

I dislike August because all the bad things that happened in the past were in August

Something I really wish I can totally forgot

that would be the most silly thing that I have done for the past 21 years

because on that

I have to try very hard to get back on the right track

>.<

I really hope on certain days in August I could be very very busy

busy until I forgot the date and time

just let it pass without remember all the past days again

however I could say that the scar is getting recover soon, after almost 2 years time.

time will be the best medicine for every scar to recover

you really have to let go some sad memories in order to reach the true happiness

ain't it?

4 more weeks to study week

next week will be Pre-EDX presentation

Nervous nervous..

But I believe we can do our best

^^V

Happy welcoming August!

I am gonna live every moments in August to the fullest

Don let the past memories keep on haunting me anymore!

p/s: Maybe I should quit bowling for the rest of this semester..Hrmmm

CASFUMAL 2011

2011-07-25T21:35:00.005+08:00

Went to CASFUMAL (Career Summit For Future Malaysian Leaders) 2011

during last weekend at Pan Pacific KLIA Hotel

For me at first I was just intentionally to accompany PY but who knows at the end I enjoyed myself a lot throughout these 2 days.

What I regretted was... I forgot to take as many photos as I can! Grrr.. >.<

First day : 23rd July 2011

Departed from UTP around 7am

The bus was late for almost 1.5 hours and I was totally a walking zombie

managed to slept for only 2 hours for the preparations to go there

I was informed at the very last minute about my confirmation of joining that event.

Was assigned to sit on different bus with them so I was just slept along the way

That 5 stars hotel is really elegant and I can see KLIA very near to the hotel

After dropped my luggage then heading to breakfast

attended many talks for the following day

most of them was about the oil and gas field related careers

but somehow I managed to meet all the CEOs from giant companies like Shell, Motorola Solutions, Tune Talks, Schlumberger, Baker Hughes and they did really inspire me with their stories.

What we did in the hall was busy writing essays to get the FREE 2GB pendrives!

Haha...I managed to get 2 because I was too lazy to think again.

2 is more than enough dy la

I am not a greedy person.

Actually not only UTP-ians involved but other universities also participated in it

Met quite lots of people actually

but somehow u can really sense some people who are over confident

I said this not because I am not good in socialize but that is what I feel about some of them

No further comments la.

The main highlight was the talk given by Hannah Tan

so many guys are crazy after her..

LOL~

I wish I can be like her

have the strong "WHY" in herself.

But I dont think I can be like her who only slept for 3 hours per days

>.<

I will do it in my own ways.

After the dinner talk we went to SPA CLUB!

But too bad the spa and jacuzzi was closed

so me and py went to steam sauna room

exactly like what you see in the tv for those rich guys used to do

talking to each other while enjoying the hotness and the feeling of keep on sweating inside

went for a very short gym session after that but because the attire that I wore during that time didnt allow me to do exercise

so we decided to wake up early in the next morning to exercise

Second day: 24th July 2011

At the end, the plan failed

because the bed was too cozy and I really feel reluctant to wake up so early.

Opps forgot to say that I was staying in the same room with another 2 girls

One of them from UTP, senior of mine and another was from UMS.

The feeling of waking up and saw the MAS airplane far over from the eye-view was really fantastic!

Second day was basically about sharing sessions

Attended the United Nation Mock Meeting before farewell

during that time you can really see how they deliver their speeches and debate like they are the real representatives from different countries.

CASFUMAL is nothing but eat, drink , listening to talks, mingle around, enjoying the facilities at 5 stars hotel, enjoying fast free wifi and etc

but I never attended such talks that wont make me even feel sleepy

Looking forward to join in again next year!

~Got future leaders' look bor??~

~Cam-whoring time!~

~Forum given by CEO Shell, Ranhill, and Tune Talk.~

~During Mock Meeting, represented Spain :) ~

~One of the tea break time~

~During opening ceremony, singing UTP song~

~Sohai picture of the days.. =P~

Once reach UTP then only I start to worry about the CPDC assignment that need to submit on today (Monday)

But luckily our lecturer postponed it to next week!

Phew~~

After listened to so much inspiring talks

I choose to action rather than talk.

Up coming next things to be done:

ETP evaluation of fabrication!

Just bear with two more week and I am almost done with ETP!

What left is just final report

and if we are lucky enough to enter SEDEX

Sure we will try our best

It's week 10 dy

Test 2 is coming very very soon

Just went and took exam slip this afternoon.

Have the feeling to end this semester as soon as possible.

But just do it, not try it.

Let's utilize what I had learnt

either into my academic

or my LIFE

Tambun trip 2/7

2011-07-16T23:08:00.012+08:00

Finally finished all the tests!

muahahahaha

It's another lazy weekends to go! :)

Watched the finale of Harry Potter yesterday night and still cant bear to say goodbye to my childhood memories

Looking back at the photos in my camera

all are taken during the Tambun trip 2 weeks ago.

Now it's time to share some photos

Went to Lost World of Tambun on 2nd July

Had been stay in Perak for nearly 3 years

but somehow still haven get the chance to visit that place until 2 weeks ago

even we got test on next coming Monday but still we "steady" ba~ =P

Now let's the photos do the talking ^^

Actually I supposed to be in this pic, but I am too short, totally hide behind it :(

At the entrance~

Oh yeah I am above 90cm T.T

About to go in..^^

Waiting and waiting...~

That map reminded me of the one at Sunway Lagoon.. :)

Lalalala...went inside liao ^^

Our outfits before changed clothes :P

Spa! The temperature was freaking HOT!

Going to see animals la...after played with water :)

This is the most lapsap photo taken during that day, the funniest as well. :P

Everyone was so eager to hold hand with that cute animal, I forgot its name dy >.<

They were holding hedgepig, it was sleepping actually but they still kacau it..tsk tsk tsk

waterfall!

like孙悟空or not?

This parrot very "haolian" don want to choi me >.<

Visited bird park was another highlights of the day!

Luckily this little pigeon din "shit" on my head. :P

Next: Feeding deer and goats.

Oawhh..Cant resist to say CUTE~ It looks so noob. =P

Finally: Group photo using self-timer

Windy evening :)

2 words to describe: wu liao... =P

Watched tiger feeding show before heading back

Again, getting wet after waiting for the tank to be fully filled after around 15 mins T.T

That's the end of our Tambun trip.

Enjoyed the day with sunbathing, hotwater spa, animal shows and last but not least, water splashing moments! :D

Next trip: ???

P/s: Actually I wanted to go Penang so badly...

Back on track 2mr

Mum reminded me 2 more months to be at HOME!

Oh yeah~

距离

2011-07-11T23:07:00.006+08:00

距离是个很可怕的东西

无声无息

人与人之间禁不起考验的感情

也渐渐淡了

总是在很兴奋或伤心的时候想找的人

却因为距离而却步

不只感情

友情也是如此

总是在很失落的时候想起远方的好友

却按不下发送键

最终选择的

还是独自承受

其实最近很烦很烦

但是已经学会自己沉淀和解决

只是觉得

没必要让别人分享我的包袱烦恼

快乐倒是相反

习惯了不喧哗

习惯了一个人走路走很快

以及

我学会把一切置身事外

我知道

我又把自己束缚了

其实我明白

事情一旦还没划上句点

就不是没希望没机会

久了

厌倦了

希望我擅自加上的句点

会是个美满的句点

。

下一句

会是新的开始

我暂时把它划上逗号

因为连我都不知道

要怎么延续下去

Mid sem break mode

2011-07-06T21:43:00.005+08:00

Finally done with 2 tests before the coming of mid sem break.

Felt so relieved once stepped out from Main Hall

Pheww~

The mode was really like during final exam atmosphere

T.T

Still went to the class after the end of the test.

But din't manage to pay attention at all since my soul and heart already fly back to my own room.

Straight away went back room to enjoy my movie spree time after the end of class.

It has been so long, for about one week I din update myself with latest episode of KangXi

So I woke up early in the morning today to load the shows from YouTube.

Slept for the whole afternoon and woke up with fresh mind going to Pasar malam.

Talking about my mid sem break

nothing else except staying in this jungle and enjoying the loneliness

Roommate went back dy lo

as well as the housemates.

So I am the only one who stay in this current house I think.

>.<

Not to say I don't to have any plan for short trip

But it's hard to find travel partner.

Felt so envy to look at those who went back their own home sweet home

while I have to stuck here for 4 days.

But nevermind

going to Ipoh tomorrow.

Wondering where else can I go except Ipoh also...

haha~

For the past few days I set this photo as my desktop wallpaper

WHY?

Because the kitten is so adorable and I got back my mood while starring at this photo.

So cute!

This 4 days what I plan to do is:

1. Finish reading the 2 novels that I bought last week

*Can't stop reading these 2 books!*

2. Watch all the movie collections available in my external hard disc now!

3. Get the lab report and all assignments done! KILL them all just like how I killed the tests!

4. Study for RE test on coming Tuesday (can I put it aside first? =P)

What else?

erm...

4 days break is short

I even wonder can I complete all those planning above within 4 days?

>.<

One great news to share!

Probably might going for an overseas vacation at the end of this year

celebrating my Christmas and New Year Eve at Manila, Hong Kong and China!

Main sponsor goes to my brother.

But everything is still in planning.

So cannot be said 100% confirmed dy lo.

Coz I don even have passport yet now.

>.<

Really hope can go

this would be the first step for my bagpacking life

ain't?

Oh yeah,

all those planning above will only become real one with one condition

I must achieve the target set by my brother

if not...

TRIP CANCELLED!

No way no way!

Must grab this chance to step out from Malaysia!

I will work hard, even harder and harder than what I ever did for the past.

Just to get that reward!

Fingers crossed!

Anyhow,

Happy Mid Sem break to everyone!

Take it as a time to recharge ourselves for coming tough challenges on next half semester!

Cant believe my 3rd Year 1st semester has come to half of the semester dy.

But who cares,

now is time for a BREAK!

*Continue my movie spree...*

4/7

2011-07-04T20:52:00.002+08:00

昨天从短促的郊游中回来

Lost of Tambun之旅

待考完试后再分享

晒得黑黑的回来

然后又开始温书

好像没有时间喘口气

今天中午刚结束一个测验

题目比我想象中简单

原本以为考完试可以回房睡个好觉

只是翻来覆去还是睡不着

Hey July

2011-07-01T22:02:00.003+08:00

Hey it's July dy.

Means I can be home in two more months time ^^

By the way July is just the beginning of all the tests, assignments, quizzed as well as ETP and bla bla bla~~

Need proper time management so that I can survive in all these.

I declare that tomorrow is an official holiday for me!

Going to Ipoh and have an early birthday celebration for MengKiat.

Coming back in Sunday and start struggling for the tests.

Refuse to think about that

Let's conquer Lost World of Tambun 2mr first!

When was the last time I went to theme park?

Answer: One year ago at Genting

T__T

Must have fun to boost my energy for coming tough daysss..

Enjoy all weekends people!

P/s: Book allowance is in today. Shopping spree starts 2mr ^^

23/6

2011-06-23T22:29:00.004+08:00

只是想写些文字

今天很难得的星期四

却不用上任何的课

躲在房间里做功课边追看港剧

经典颓废的一天

可是我乐在其中

或许是面对太久的电脑荧幕

眼睛总是会不自觉地流眼泪

我想，近视会越来越深，也不是没道理的

因为我太不会好好照顾自己的眼睛了

习惯了透过镜片去看这个世界

只局限于眼前的景色

会不会就此眼光变得狭窄了

不知道为什么

最近老是提不起劲做任何事

我总是很早起身

打开电脑

点击最新集数的康熙来了

然后再睡回笼觉

可能你会觉得很可笑

可是很多时候我都是在看完康熙来了才开始每一天的生活

是上瘾了？

还是纯粹欣赏两位主持人？

又或者是

因为小S做到了我没勇气做到的事-坦率

我总是觉得

要坦率很难

因为我总是把别人的意见眼光放在第一位

思前后顾

才会去说，去做

有一位节目来宾说

我们都是从大自然来的

可是我们只会在伤心或者想要逃避时候

才会想要亲近大自然

去找回心灵上一点点的寂慰

总有一天我们也要回归大自然的怀抱

人就是这样

总是一味追求不实际，缥缈虚无的东西

一直到碰钉子了

才会知道痛，要放手

没有自怜自艾的意思

因为我也不要再钻进牛角尖了

这个，算是告别式吧

以前所有我在乎的，我不在乎的

都不重要了

New blog name

2011-06-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

Changed new blog name.

This is what I really wanted to do now.

Live it fully everyday.

The "it" here refers to my life.

I realized, it's hard to make everyone around satisfies with you.

No matter what u did, for sure there is some1 will still try to ignore your efforts.

Even your initial intention is positive,

but why have to think it another way around?

Maybe I shouldn't do this anymore.

What for?

As long as I fulfill my responsibility

either you happy or not,

is no longer included in my further consideration.

Sometimes, it ain't bad to turn a bit selfish

for our own sake

isn't?

Bowling day

2011-06-15T23:31:00.005+08:00

Just came back from another Ipoh outing, or should I call it a bowling day? =D

Went to Ipoh right after finished our CPDC quiz.

Reached there by around 1pm

Managed to play snooker while waiting for our turn.

Today's outing consists of total 10 people, 5 juniors and 5 seniors.

So we were divided into two teams for some sort of bowling competitions.

Glad that I was quite satisfied with my scores today.

I would say I never been so enjoyed the bowling games like what we had today.

Might because of we were compete with each other,

or might because we enjoyed the cheers along all the total 8 games of bowling.

Some people might think that we are bowling freaks who are crazy about it almost every week

but when you play it together with lots of friends

you will know how fun we did enjoy.

In short, bowling is always fun with many people playing together,

while cheering and giving supports for each other.

We spent more than 7 hours in the bowling court!

That's why I said today is a bowling day for me.

Managed to take group photos after the end of bowling games.

This is the one taken using self-timer, lousy effect. Haha :D

Finally came out with this nicer photo. :)

I love bowling because I enjoy every single moment with friends.

Unless I am emo because my score is bad and I keep on "cuci longkang"

Luckily today I was quite concentrate. ^^

Went to Secret Recipe after dinner.

Ordered Durian Cheese Cake.

So funny to see PeiYing and SengYee stay away from me because they cant stand with the smell of durian.

LOL

Perhaps this is gonna be my last outing for this month, or until the coming mid-sem break.

Still need to save money for my future smartphone, and future plannings.

Thanks for making my day!

Wa sangat sangat suka bowling...hahaha!

28/5

2011-05-28T23:53:00.004+08:00

新的学期，换了新房间

窗外的景色不再是一大片辽阔的蓝天

取而代之的是一间间女生的房间

放眼望去

凡是灯亮着的，窗开着的，一个个都盯着电脑荧幕在看

她们，也是在那样地看我吧？

宿舍外的走廊道

常常会看到一些男生站在昏暗的灯光下等着他们在等着的人

我想，被等的女生应该很幸福吧？

室友回去了

我也要习惯一个星期有4天是一个人在房间的生活

今天是第一天（因为昨天太迟回来）

整天追看《犀利人妻》

一把眼泪一把鼻涕为谢安真抱屈，还有不断在心里臭骂黎薇恩

也顺便发泄下情绪

昨晚看电影笑够了，今天看戏哭够了

情绪反差好大

但是总好过每天麻木地过着日子

今晚在房间太闲，闲到我没事做

结果扎了整头的辫子

看看明天睡醒后是怎么个披头散发法？

看厌了直发的自己

试试看卷发的自己

是不是像个欧巴桑一样？

昨天，我欠自己一句：“生日快乐”

完全忘记了自己的农历生日

妈妈总是说，农历生日才是比较重要的

可是我好像不放在心上

现在补说，是不是太迟了？

虽然不是过得很快乐

因为心里很不舒服

但是

终于长大啦~

希望自己不要那样容易emo了

一直想开个隐私的部落格

可是舍不得这里

写了快四，五年了吧？

要结束很难

只是不了解

为什么有些人可以那么轻易把一些东西说结束就结束

不明白也不需要去明白

因为我不稀罕

（几拽一下=P)

我就是拽，怎样？

Short sem break + 21st Bday celebration + 520 gathering

2011-05-23T18:13:00.012+08:00

Today is the first day of new semester.

I am now a Third Year student dy.

Will be having a tough challenge-Engineering Team Project this semester.

But don let it affect my super good mood.

When comes to the time, I will try my best on it.

Just back from my super short sem break

only 10 days but it was the most awesome one for me!

Went KL on 12 May with Ivan and Siang Leng.

They were my "travelling partner" of homecoming journey.

Went to KLIA around 12am and I missed the last bus to LCCT.

So you can imagine how worried was I on that time.

I kept on praying I managed to get to LCCT on next early for my flight at 7am.

Finally I was there-LCCT 1 hour before my flight.

Rushed to settle my luggage and really thanks Steward for helping me for the self check-in.

Otherwise sure I cant boarding on time.

>.<

And the most luckiest thing happened on me was..

I dropped my wallet at KL sentral and a super handsome foreigner picked it up and returned it to me!

OMG I was soooooo shocked when he called me and returned to me.

Really really grateful and thankful to him!

Frankly speaking, that was the most challenging homecoming journey for me and I really felt so great to be at home safely!

Once I sat in the plane, I slept until reached Sibu.

I din even realize when the plane landed until I heard the announcement from the pilot.

So great when I opened my eyes and realized that I am in Sarawak dy!

Once landed, my daddy came and pick me up and went shopping for the whole day.

And I got new headset again, with new design one somemore.

Back in hometown the next day and started my intensive training-learn how to cook.

For the past whole week I only managed to learn few dished since most of the time I spent on watching series..haha~

~Fried prawn! See how big is the prawn? XD~

~This is my fav food la! 五香春卷made by me and my mum! I got helped balut also...^^~

Not forgotten the main purpose I went back home on this short sem was: to celebrate my 21st bday at home! :)

Actually my family never celebrated bday for me since I was small.

For them, bday celebration is for those who aged 50 and above. >.<

Anyhow, my mum said 21st bday is a meaningful moment for anyone.

Once you are officially 21, you are no longer a child.

You can make ur own decisions.

So mum gave me a special gift: Silver key (Suppose to be gold one la...haha)

It indicates that I am an adult dy lo.

What made me the most surprised was, for the very first time mum bought me a birthday cake!

She went to take it when I was having my nap =.="

But the staff at the bakery thr forgot to write "happy birthday" on the cake

so it was just a simple and "plain" bday cake.

But nvm, I still very happy and touched!

I also received some bday presents from friends.

Mostly are keychains

maybe bcoz they know I am collecting keychains??

haha~

~Silver key from mum. Will wear it wherever I go :)~

~My simple yet delicious bday cake ^^~

~21st years old look=P ~

My bday celebration was even great with the calling from my bro whom at overseas now.

Heart him for still remembering my bday...haha

Also thanks for all the sms wishes bday callings and FB wishes from friends.

I did reply all one by one right?

After few days la since I cant on9 at home >.<

Spent my bday night with some old school mates and during that night also we decided to have a gathering on the next day.

So we called all our friends and asked them to come back to hometown on the next day because I am leaving soon during that time.

We all promised to have a gathering when we are 21 years old and we finally did it!

but too sad 2 of our friends cant make it due to too long distance from hometown.

Hopefully at the end of this year we can have another gathering again :)

Last dinner at home before coming back UTP =(
But I already mastered how to cook the soup in the photo above!

heheheh ^^

520, I spent whole day with friends from morning until midnight.

Then rushed back to pack all my stuffs and get ready to go Sibu on 521.

Who knows my flight was cancelled after I had been waiting there for 1 hour for boarding.

The flight was cancelled due to technical problem.

I felt like want to boycott AirAsia for the rest of my life

but luckily I got replacement flight on the next morning..

So, nvm la..

Next time will go for AirAsia again..

LOL~

Met many Sibu ppl at the airport made my journey went back UTP not that lonely.

Reached UTP around 4.30pm and started to tidy up my new room.

Yea I changed new room again, and also new roommate ^^

At night girl's talk with PeiYing and she gave me her hand-made bday card.

Really touched and felt so heart-warming when I read the content.

That made me realized that someone is still caring about me...hehe^^

Done with first day lectures and everything seems quite smoothly so far.

Accepted an offer for a coming event in August.

Hope I can handle both academic and event things well

That's short update from me.

Happy entering 3rd year studies!^^

3/5/2011

2011-05-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

总是觉得那种感觉已经不再存在了~

一样的场景一样的地方一样的人，事，物

上个学期的尾声的一切还历历在目

只是现在回想起来的话

一切都不一样了~

是因为一直说服自己不可以再倚赖

或许是习惯了静静呆在房间凝视窗外发呆边温书的时刻

我习惯了辽阔的天空

不再局限于四四方格的空间

我真的想找回那种感觉

可是没那么容易

一旦失去了

要重新找回已不是那么容易的事

也不会再一样了

精神一直处于紧绷状态

除了睡觉

我不知道要怎样舒解

颓废了好久

原来要迎头赶上是那么难的

只觉得自己一直在边缘挣扎

可是又不甘愿随波逐流

我就是那么不认输

天好黑却感受不到冷风

空调的冷度总是冷得直入心肺

有那么一点受不了

好像脑袋也冻结似的

可是一想到距离回家剩下的日子少于10天了

就觉得再一下下就好

没什么大不了的

对不？

Last outing before final

2011-04-30T13:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday supposed to be the first day of study week.

Anyhow went out to Ipoh just to have my final outing before final exam.

Need something to buck up my study mood.

Start playing 3 games of bowling around 5.30pm together with cheme seniors.

First 2 games were suck.

However after getting myself Starbuck Green Tea Frapuccino drink with 50% promotion before 3rd game,

all our bowling scores showed drastically increment after that

And I managed break my own record up to 127!

My highest score ever!

And we like to shout "Wheeee~~"(Angry bird mode) after each of our turn to play.

Even though some of the seniors are Malays but it wasnt a problem for us to have fun.

Went Secret Recipe for our dinner.

Ordered Chicken Courdon Blue, filled with cheese.

My favourite.

And Durian Cheeese cake taste like u are eating the real durian.

nice!

Continued another 3 games of bowling just to kill the time left for singing K session at 12am.

However since left half an hour before 12 am

so we decided to add on 2 more games and tried to finish 2 games within 30 mins.

Each of us was queueing up in line to finish the games asap by boost up our speed and energy.

But still failed the challenge la.

Due to the changing of lane for 2 times.

=.="

Blasting music for 1.5hrs until 2am.

Shouted like h*ll in the room.

Proceed with our last activity-Supper (or early breakfast?) at McD.

My first McD time for this semester, and also the last.

>.<

Back in UTP exactly at 4am.

O.o

The cheers of "Wheeee~~" still fresh in my mind.

But have to get rid of all entertainment cravings from my mind from now onwards

no distractions until the end of final.

Enough of enjoyment

It's time to get back study and be serious!

Btw it's really distracted to study in room,

since IRC will only be opened on next Tues

I pray for internet disconnection in my room

hahaha~

Happy study week everyone.

Buck up!!!!

Welcoming the month of May

^.^

24/4/2011

2011-04-24T16:43:00.003+08:00

习惯性地坐在窗前抱着等待的心情

等待每到傍晚时分就会下大雨的好天气

戴着耳机

听着Hebe的你太猖狂

看着雨滴滴滴答答拍打在玻璃窗上

（这下子我连抹窗的力气都省了）

就这样静静地什么也不做

课本功课考试大考

暂时在我脑海中消失

我们都需要让自己真正静下来的时候

就这样

听着歌看着雨

有时候我情绪低落压力时不乞求任何的关怀

只要适当的时间来场大雨

我也可以自我疗伤

美好的星期天傍晚

我只想一个人静静沉醉在音乐和大自然的乐律中

谁说雨天是忧郁的？

好心情

是自己创造的

♥

13/4/2011

2011-04-14T00:36:00.002+08:00

Officially 22 more days to FINALS

Just ended my test 2day I think I did very bad on it.

When think back again,

what happened to me this semester?

Everything seems keep on distracting my mind.

T__T

In this coming 2 weeks will be very busy weeks ahead

with all the assignments submission date and test 2 are all lining up and waiting.

Means no more sleep-before-12am life la~

Just bear with one more month!

I still can make better changes within one month!

Problems all settled liao.

No need worry this, worry that anymore.

This is the only thing that brighten up my day 2day~

Felt like..phew~Finally no more awkward feeling.

Be a good girl la TCJ

like what you used to be.

I prefer the old me, especially last sem.

Stick with what you always believe with,

no doubt, only full commitment

And should stop counting the days left going back

bcoz it seriously make me homesick.

;(

Thursday again.

Make it a productive one.

10/4/2011

2011-04-10T16:50:00.003+08:00

原本还很炎热的下午

我还在睡着午觉

才不过几十分钟的时间

我就被一声声的雷声吓醒

天好黑风好大

这样的天气跟前几天的下午一模一样

现在回想心里觉得很可怕

如果当时那道雷电真的不偏不倚劈中车

在车里的我是不是就这样跟这个世界说再见

T_T

幸好我还活着

感恩和庆幸

我这样算不算是和死亡擦肩而过？

>.<

忽然觉得自己很幸福

至少我还活着

其他的事情

也变得无所谓了~

只要活着就是希望

可以快点下大雨吗？

一道道的雷电不停在窗前闪下闪下

总是会时不时被吓一跳

*_*

我只喜欢下大雨的天空

而不是闪电交接的天空

p/s:还活着，真好 =）

说好了

2011-04-10T00:37:00.004+08:00

说好了要戒掉半夜喝咖啡的习惯

说好了要早睡早起减少午睡的时间

说好了要把心给定下来不多想

说好了要在剩余的时间卯足全力冲刺

说好了要珍惜每一分好好利用每一秒

这些说好的承诺怎么我一点也办不到

我想，鞭策自己的方法还是老样子吧~

说好了，下不为例！

Dream

2011-04-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dream what you want to dream；

go where you want to go；

be what you want to be，

because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

做你想做的梦吧，

去你想去的地方吧，

成为你想成为的人吧，

因为你只有一次生命，

一个机会去做你所有想做的事。

And I am working on it!

三月的最后一天

2011-03-31T23:35:00.003+08:00

三月的最后一天

才刚完成一个累人的功课

在按下“打印”的那一刻

觉得整个人轻松多了

今天很积极

一次过完成了两份报告和功课

三月的最后一天

怎么我变得那么有活力又积极？

这是好事

因为接下来还有得忙的

Luxurious dinner

2011-03-24T21:30:00.009+08:00

Here comes the self-declare 4 days of mid sem break!!!

Another random outing to Ipoh today.

Seems like usual but then ended up with something unusual.

By the way,

I am getting more and more skilled with bowling.

but then I need to brush up my skill.

Provided that no negative mood on me while playing bowling.

Today I am very happy with 6 games of bowling with the price less than RM12!

While came to decide what to eat for dinner,

we always got many ideas.

Kejap De Garden la, kejap Jusco la, kejap Ipoh Parade la~

Wanted to go Airport since long time ago dy

but then 6 of us nowadays seldom got the chance to go out together.

Hopefully next time we will be gather at Korean BBQ la~

Final decision: AIRPORT for dinner!

Sorry NPY and SSL for dumping you two.

>.<

Once entered the Airport restaurant I felt amazed by the surrounding.

White design, white piano, dim lightning, soft musics....

And you can see all the waiters are wearing PILOT uniforms!

Actually I like to see guys wearing pilot uniforms.

All the time at real airport I will searching for pilots who walk pass by my side.

Because I think they have very smart uniforms and they look so macho and charming.

Here are some pictures of the dinner.

I dint bring along my camera so all the photos are taken with my lousy phone.

>.<

"Welcome to AK5194, flight from KL to Sibu..."

I am so miss with those greeting on plane..

~I just simply love the white design of the restaurant~

Got a small area of bar counter over there.

Suitable for those who want to relax themselves after whole day of hectic office works.

~See the WHITE piano?!~

Too bad I din learn how to play piano.

My dinner: Spaghetti Stew Beef European Style

Comment: Eh actually the food there so so nia.

Haha~

But the "white atmosphere" there will make you be intoxicated lots.

"P/s:I also dono why he so happy?=.="

Guess where were we going after the luxurious dinner?

It's Tutti Fruitti !

First time eat such expensive mixed yogurt (or ice -cream)

RM0.53 per gram

O.o

See how we enjoy our life as a student?

Mine was Chocolate + Orange flavour RM6.90.

Upper left: MengKiat's Grape and Strawberry flavour

followed by Nic's Chocolate flavour,

SengYee's Lychee flavour and

lastly, mine.

(in clockwise direction)

It's always great to have sweet desserts after dinner.

Turning all our stresses into desserts!

And our target is to try all the restaurants available in De Garden!

How long does it gonna take?

One semester?

Hrmmmm.....

And lastly

Item for the day~

I bought new shoes again!

>.<

"Thanks" to both Mr. Tan(s) for the instigation.

But I would like to say....

You both really got high sight and good taste in choosing ladies shoes la!

I very suka suka suka!!~~

Too bad my feet cant fit in the brown color one.

I promise this will the last pair of shoes I buy for this semester!

TCJ don become a shoeaholic please!

~According to them, this style of shoes is a must-have item for girls, really?~

Back in UTP around 9pm.

Means back in reality la~

Time to get back to assignments and reports.

I can see myself drowning in coming tonnes of assignments.

Don complain don complain.

Just try my best.

P/s: I salute myself for manage to totally away from FB for the whole day.

1 more hour before I can spam spam spam on people's wall!!

haha~

20/3/2011

2011-03-20T21:28:00.004+08:00

曾经，出国深造是我的梦想

可是但机会被剥夺时

留在本地

也未尝不是件好事

每个人都有每个人的去处

既然现在也处在大学门槛中

相比之下

我比其他朋友幸运很多了

告诉自己谨记着以下

哈佛图书馆的二十条训言：

1.此刻打盹，你将做梦；而此刻学习，你将圆梦。

2.我荒废的今日，正是昨日殒身之人祈求的明日。

3.觉得为时已晚的时候，恰恰是最早的时候。

4.勿将今日之事拖到明日。

5.学习时的苦痛是暂时的，未学到的痛苦是终生的。

6.学习这件事，不是缺乏时间，而是缺乏努力。

7.幸福或许不排名次，但成功必排名次。

8.学习并不是人生的全部。但既然连人生的一部分―――学习也无法征服，还能做什么呢？

9.请享受无法回避的痛苦。

10.只有比别人更早、更勤奋地努力，才能尝到成功的滋味。

11.谁也不能随随便便成功，它来自彻底的自我管理和毅力。

12.时间在流逝。

13.现在流的口水，将成为明天的眼泪。

14.狗一样地学，绅士一样地玩。

15.今天不走，明天要跑。

16.投资未来的人，是忠于现实的人。

17.受教育程度代表收入。

18.一天过完，不会再来。

19.即使现在，对手也不停地翻动书页。

20.没有艰辛，便无所获。

尤其是第一和最后一则。

心情写照：

雨从傍晚就一直下

我就坐在桌前看雨静静地下

暂时放下手边的课业

让自己好好沉淀想一想

是时候放弃了

不是吗？

这是我未来2年半的目标:

To Become a Nerd!

18/3/2011

2011-03-19T01:09:00.004+08:00

Just back from Ipoh.

Although tired but I did enjoy a lots.

It has been quite a long time I din feel so relax and totally put all the things aside.

Now all the tests were ended.

I can catch back my breath and being lazy for my 3 days weekends.

Went Ipoh for the purpose of supporting Pei Ying for her bowling selection.

Without disappointing us, she managed do it.

So our efforts of going Ipoh and support her was worth.

Actually I myself wanted to sing K and bowling as well la~

LOL

Anyhow sometimes I dono why I was so "dai sai"?!

I always bring bad lucks to people around me.

Either make their things lost or damaged.

Seriously it happened quite a lot of times dy.

I dono why and how it happened?

Next time I wont simply go and touch other people things anymore.

The more than 2 hours of conversation after dinner made me think a lots,

along the journey back to campus.

I din sleep in the car.

I was just closed my eyes and started to rethink again.

Maybe most of time I used to think too simple.

Or I choose to make it not too complicated.

I don like guessing what people think actually.

I will just believe what you said what you acted and what you told me.

I am very lazy to analysis whether what you told me was right or not.

It is very tiring to always guess whether are you telling the truth or not.

Even some people might not behave like his/her actual behaviors.

But as well as you treat me well, I will think that you are a good person.

I understand everyone will has their own "true face".

Most of the time I won realized about that unless someone tell me about it.

Fine, I was shocked.

I know I shouldn't be so naive.

21 years old le...

Should start to realize people will tend to disguise themselves.

Someone said I should remain to be naive,

if I don have the ambition to achieve higher and higher.

But I think I should keep something to myself

something private, something that only me myself can know.

Hrmm...or maybe just act like the usual me la.

no need to care how other people think.

I don wan to live so tired.

For all the things I heard just now,

I will just remain silent and

"faham-faham sendiri la"

hahaha~

Sometimes no need to say out everything so clearly lo.

As long as I understand

that's enough.

You can remain as who you are.

I will just see you from far.

I still choose to believe.

People around me are all nice.

p/s: Anyhow the happiest thing of the day was I bought new shoes!!

and it is purple and white colours!! yeepee~~

can call me purple-holic liao~

wakaka^^

not forgotten also i met a super nice person who fixed my spec FOC!

thank you very much!

hehehe~

So-called mid sem break

2011-03-10T16:50:00.004+08:00

Here comes the freaking short 4 days of my mid sem break.

Woke up in the morning with the tiredness after the 4 hours of crazy badminton and basketball yesterday night.

I suppose to be in KL or going for MyGopeng trip at this moment

but this coming 4 days is gonna be fully occupied with assignments, lab report and revision for 2 tests which fall on next Tuesday.

Tuesday again.

Haiz...

Whenever I think of Tuesday I will sigh again and again...

Heavy downpour in UTP while I was taking my nap just now.

Woke up when I felt of the cold breeze blowing into my room.

Then I sit in front of desk and just looking at the heavy rain.

For around half an hour.

I can smell the freshness of air and the fragrance of green grasses.

I just simply love rainy day.

Now the rain stopped

I should go back to my work.

Works pending:

Sepro Test

Probstat Test

PI Lab report

Sepro assignment

ITM assignment

Studying in room while others enjoying their trip is very torturing.

I must stop having that kind of thinking.

>.<

But now I am wondering how my new earphone looks like.

Gonna get it later.

Yoohoo!!!!

Chiong chiong chiong ar~!!

开夜车

2011-03-07T01:32:00.005+08:00

凌乱的桌面

（是真的很乱=.=")

沉重的眼皮

冷掉的咖啡

放眼望去

对面宿舍仍然亮着的几盏灯

却给我一种莫名的鼓励

因为不是只有我一个人默默埋头苦读

对面的那个他我不认识的那些人

也在默默努力着

不知为什么

看着那些亮着灯的房间

我的睡意也不那么浓烈了

再加上这样阴凉的夜晚

最适合开夜车

快了

还有2天！

我可以的~

6/3/2011

2011-03-06T14:28:00.001+08:00

很快。

3/3/2011

2011-03-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

Had my very first test for this semester on this evening.

I rewarded myself a whole free night with lazy mode after the test.

After the dinner, I followed Pei Ying went back her room.

Due to tiredness, I was fallen asleep on her bed while we were girls-talking.

Finally I can have a short nap.

Without stress, without burdens, and with cleared mind.

She know what I am facing now.

From yesterday until today, my mind was distracted.

Nervous breakdown one day before test...

Thus, this morning I isolated myself away from room

stay in IRC for the whole day before our test.

I told myself no way for me to continue being distracted anymore.

Self-motivation at the last minute worked.

I had found the way to get away from all these.

At first I should not let others to influence my mood.

This is the most important.

I will fully take control over my own emotion from now onwards.

Yes somethings and someone might made me felt down.

But it doesn't last for long.

I will overcome it.

I wont wait for any uncertainty anymore.

Basketball games just now really did make me feel so relax.

Maybe what I need is just wasting my energy on sport so that I can stop being emo.

Let's plan for coming 3 days weekends and spend it wisely.

One fully memorized test on next Tuesday.

I need 100% concentration.

I know I can and I need to have faith in myself.

Mid-sem break starts on next Thursday.

Since MyGopeng trip has been cancelled.

So, should I go KL and find my brother?

I need him to motivate me face-to-face.

But all the date of submission of assignments and tests are happen right after mid sem break.

I just don wish to spend 4 days of mid sem break in UTP.

Perhaps going IRC tomorrow?

Yes I must.

No more procrastination please!

2/3/2011

2011-03-02T19:46:00.004+08:00

I know I am not that kind of girl.

I know I should behave like what other ordinary girls do.

Can anyone teach me how to behave like a girl that they wish to see?

I don't really mind about all those comments

but sometimes when I think again.

maybe what they said are right.

Since they are guys.

>.<

Should I change?

To talk gently

Laugh gently also

Everything behave gently...

zzzzz

I wish if I were a boy now~

Dilemma

2011-02-27T09:41:00.004+08:00

I will always be in dilemma when comes to the time to book the flight tickets

Browsing through the homepage of Airasia and Malaysiaarlines everyday,

hoping to see the great deals offer.

At this moment,

RM133 one way from LCCT-Sibu, quite cheap compared to usual price.

Should I grab it right now?

I hope there is another alternative way to go back hometown,

across the sea and mountain..

haha~

But so far,

taking airplane is the only way.

Morning flight is always cheaper compared to afternoon/night flight.

It seems that staying overnight at airport is a must for coming homecoming journey.

Anyway, I love to stay overnight at Starbucks@LCCT

It made me feel very comfortable and not sleepy at all.

^.^

Allowance just banked in and I have to spend almost half of it to book for flight tickets.

Lack of $$$

>.<

No FAMA scholarship

because I should learn how to manage my own financial budget.

Need to cut down some expenses for certain things

This is the reality of approaching 21 years old....

haiz....

26/2/2011

2011-02-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

While preparing for PCS presentation

I learnt lot of things.

It takes quite long time for me

Setting topic, searching information, extracting main points,

preparing slides, writing my own script, practising...

I never experienced all these for the past 20 years.

I just need to improve my speaking skills

and most important, overcome my nervousness while presenting.

Just get done downloading flash from website.

With the help of Google, I made it.

This is indeed a good kick start for further preparations on tomorrow.

Done for today.

It's time to catch back studies.

2 tests next week and I am not yet fully prepared.

I just wish all these can get done asap.

I need vacation, seriously.

And I really hate to spend my 3 days weekends fully on academic stuffs.

No wonder I shopped a lot of things at TF just now.

Don't go for shopping if u are under depression.

LOL!

元宵夜

2011-02-17T21:17:00.003+08:00

今天是元宵节另一个月圆人团圆的佳节

好像已经习惯了每逢佳节倍思亲的感觉

在这时候朋友间的聚会就变得格外重要

也好像就可以稍微平复想家的心情

和朋友吃了顿很简单的晚餐

也可以让元宵节变得不一样

抛柑许愿觅得如意郎君好像跟我扯不上关系

没关系

我单身快乐就好

窗外的月光好圆好亮

抬头就看见月光的夜晚

我喜欢也很珍惜这一刻

过完了年我也要收拾心情了

很快就要测验了

写在记事簿第一页上大大的目标还有待完成

我要加油

祝愿天底下的有情人终成眷属

东方情人节快乐

元宵节快乐!

13/2/2011

2011-02-13T17:11:00.004+08:00

Whenever I feel stress, I will be having headache.

I have no mood to do anything, even my favourite activities.

The stress sometimes comes from people around me.

The way how they act, talk and behave.

I wish to be like them, always.

But then I know following others blindly will make me lost my true identity.

People used to aim for perfection.

I know no one is perfect but I cant just simply accept this fact.

I prefer to face the stress that comes from academic stuff because I know as long as I put efforts on it I will be paid off.

But for things besides that, I really cant help with them.

I felt uncomfortable when I was surrounded by some people who are much more better than me.

I will be extremely silent, sit there doing nothing, just seeing people walk by.

If you ask me question, I will only answer without further conversation.

I found myself a habit.

Whenever I have no interest on someone or some topic

my fingers and my eyes will focus on my handphone

either sending SMS to friends or just simply want to find something to do

That's show that I am not really in good mood and I don want to let other people know.

I know this is impolite but I dono how to hide my sadness behind my face.

Rather than letting people notice my true expression,

I prefer to find other things to do

to avoid your eye-contact.

I envy on someone who can speak very straight-forward.

I cant and I always care about the words that come from my mouth.

I know words can hurt people.

I felt it before so I don wan to make it happens to other people as well.

I always live in the situation where I have to "filter" certain words that come out from my mouth.

Sometimes I am very reluctant to ask helps from other people, especially guys.

Maybe because I am afraid of being rejected.

I will think like this:"they might be busy as well" , "why should they help me?"

Sometimes I wonder how could certain people so "thick face" and keep on asking helps from others?

and why she/he thinks that it is a must for other people to help her/him?

ans when people refuse to offer a hand,

she/he will angry madly.

I really cant understand people's behavior like this.

Time goes by,

I still stuck in my comfort zone.

I did try to socialize around.

But I found it carried a lots of burdens on myself.

I don like and I don want.

So I choose to escape, and stay silent.

Finally I choose to back to normal.

It's fated for me to not having many close friends around.

VDay is coming and it falls on Monday.

The history of Saint Valentine is saddening

but nowadays it become a very important day for couples.

For those who has the right one,

cherish this moment and let him/her know how much you love him/her.

And for those who still remain single,

cheers for single and "freedom"..lolx =D

It is just another normal day for me.

Happy Valentine Day everyone.

答案

2011-02-10T11:29:00.005+08:00

就在昨晚

我最想知道的事情终于有了答案

有一点点的伤心

毕竟我对答案也心里有数了

说真的

知道答案后反而轻松很多

至少心里的疑问有了个确凿的答案

和朋友聊了很多

一时间找到抒发管道

我也顾不上什么心理防设

全都统统说出来

原来比躲在一旁偷哭来得更有效

因为朋友可以给意见

不会让我往牛角尖钻

我只能说在错的时间遇见对的人

你说除了释怀我还能怎样？

我不知道我能等多久

或许是一天一个月一年甚至是一辈子

感觉很容易消逝只有感情才是历久不衰的

喝了杯热牛奶倒头大睡更好

我只是相信

一切都会好起来的，很快！

不为什么

就因为我天生乐观的性格

就因为我是那种一受了伤就会自我保护的人

就因为我是陈强瑾

*突然间，我比以往更想家。。

9.2.2011

2011-02-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

今天是两个系友的生日

出去吃了顿丰盛的晚餐

正逢今天是大年初七人日

所以我第二次体验“捞生”到底是怎么一回事

第一次是我第一次没回家过年的那一天

可是和一大群不认识的人一起吃团圆饭和“捞生”

和今天不一样

朋友说要说出新年愿望然后能尽量捞多高就多高

在心里默默许下了一个心愿

一个没有人知道的愿望

最近的生活渐渐回到了忙碌的轨道

而现在最常听见的话就是我要拿4 Flat这句话

才开学没多久

看来周遭的同学们很有考好成绩的决心

今天我也在记事簿的第一页大大地写下这个学期的目标

你可以说我怕输

但是我也是为了自己的前途着想

书里说：“要完成大目标就要从小小的目标开始”

那么每一天小小的目标我都要努力去完成

我希望明年5月我刚订下的第一个人生目标可以如愿实现

我只是希望可以看看外面更辽阔的世界

学习更多体验更多经历更多

人家都说

得不到的永远是最好的

那么会不会有一天

当我拼命努力换回来的成果

并不会让我如预期般开心

虽然自己想拥有

但是看见别人都有

而自己却得不到

才会激发自己的占有欲？

到底我一直想要得到的是不是我真正想拥有的？

会不会当有一天我如愿得到了

我却一点也开心不起来

成功感也随之消失

是应该勇于追求还是继续把那份遗憾埋藏在心里？

遗憾有时也是一种美

让人咬牙切齿却又望之却步

但是我们始终无法释怀

那得不到的遗憾

笑着回家过年

2011-01-31T14:25:00.005+08:00

一年到头漂泊在外

回家的次数不多

唯有回家过年总是特别的令人期待

期待听到属于自己的乡音方言

每当听到那熟悉的乡音

才感觉到家的温暖

回到大学已经一个多星期了

新学期更多不一样的新事物

可想而知庆祝新年后的学业会多繁重

可是现在也顾不得那么多

我的所有思绪已经飞回家里了

很多系友上个周末已经回家了

我也忘了自己是怎样熬过三天漫长周末

或许是听着新年歌曲来提醒自己新年快到了

又或许是看着再熟悉不过的动画来打发时间

今天上课更不用说

仿佛像灵魂出窍一样

思绪飘洋过海回家咯~！

至于贺岁电影

只看了《天天好天》

电影里的其中一句对白：

“阿公老了，以后都不知道还有没有机会回来看你们？”

熟悉的对白，不一样的场景

回忆起17年前的那一天

我只有4岁但记忆犹新

好像就是从那一天起后的新年都没那么热闹了

因为少了家里的精神支柱

叔叔伯伯们也很少和我们聚在一起过年了

17年前的全家福

现在还安静地躺在我房间的抽屉里

什么时候还有这个机会

可以真正地全家团圆

再一次照下全家福？

虽然我们都发现

随着一年年长大

我们对新年的期待也会相对的减少

挨家挨户拜年的习俗

随着我进大学念书之后就没这个念头了

而且进入大学后

我好像连一张贺年卡再也没收过

手机信息，面子书留言已经取代了手写的贺年卡

可是我最想收到的

还是用手写满祝福话语的新年贺卡

小时候的新年

最多可以收到超过20++的贺年卡

现在一张也没有

往后的每个新年

我要把一张张的手写的贺年卡寄出去

想要的话可以留下地址

因为我相信有很多人跟我一样

希望收到窝心的贺年卡

=）

两年前开始回乡过年起

我只会选择去特别友好的朋友家里拜年

搓麻将我不在行

玩纸牌我又没兴趣

多数都是陪家人聊天

和朋友相聚

有时候我甚至觉得新年很闷

但是你能说不要回家过年吗？

当然不可能

平时只能够放假回家

以后毕了业回家的机会就会更少了

所以我要争取每一次回家的机会

初步估计

我会在26个小时后回到家里~

漫长的回家旅程

就从今天的5点钟开始

今晚会是一个漫长的夜晚

不过看着机场人来人往的人潮

再加上一杯Starbucks latte（可能会再续杯。。）

应该很快就会熬到天亮了

希望明早的班机不要延误

希望回家的路程一切顺风

今年的农历新年

我要笑着回家！

祝愿我所有的朋友们

新年快乐

扬眉“兔”气！

红包装满你的口袋！

^.^

22.01.11

2011-01-23T01:35:00.004+08:00

一大早从温暖的被窝中被闹钟吵醒

匆忙地收拾最后的行李

再次乘搭铁鸟越海回到大学

或许是因为重感冒的关系

在高空中耳塞到几乎听不到任何声音

在那一刻才体会到原来失去声音的世界是如此的寂静，也很恐怖

一直到后来忍不住躲到厕所去捏住鼻子吐气

才勉强让自己恢复听力

不止鼻塞，耳塞，连脑袋也比以往沉重好多倍

就这样拖着昏昏谔谔的躯壳一头栽入机舱里头

唯一让我觉得舒服些的是望向机外的层层白云

也瞄准时机捕捉了这张只能在高空中才能捕捉到的画面

下了机

开始感觉到西马一如往常炎热的天气

开始在机场到处溜逛

看着身边人来人往的人潮

各有各要抵达的目的地

世界如此之大

要一一留下足迹

就算花上一辈子的时间也只能踏遍整个北半球

生活，也不过就是如此

在搭巴士回怡保前

在机场的Starbucks喝了杯久违3个月之久的latte

味道依然香醇

可是喝着时的心情已经不一样了

又要开始适应咖啡苦涩滋味的生活

但是我却甘之如饴

太过于享受会让人变得更加懒散

总是要尝过苦头，才知道甜的滋味

回到大学第一件要适应的事是新住处，新房间

就目前来说满意程度还让我觉得蛮不错

窗外的景色不再是辽阔的球场

不过至少我看得见蓝天白云

第二件要适应的就是生理时钟

瞧~现在已经凌晨2点多了仍睡意全无

试了数绵羊，用枕头蒙住眼睛睡觉，

还是徒劳无功

索性放弃

原来不止我心理做好要迟睡早起的生活作息的准备

就连生理也自然而然地履行了~

套句老套话：“习惯就好咯~！”

新学期没什么特别展望

只要知道自己的目的地在哪里

不走捷径，不迷失方向，脚踏实地

总会有安全抵达目的地的那一天

祝愿新学期一切安好~！

Recent updates

2011-01-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

It has been a long period I didnt update my blog

might be due to my laziness,

or no special updates about me recently

While staying at home

I really dont have any mood to open my laptop and online 24/7 as what I did while in UTP

This proves that the only entertainment in UTP is the internet connection

And for the coming days

I wont put so many of my free time on surfing internet anymore.

I want to explore more things outside the world of the web.

"Welcoming the new year with new passion"

This is what I usually said to myself

However this year I didnt set any new year resolution for myself.

Used to do it for the past few years,

but did I really manage to achieve all at the end of the year?

No!

Most of them...I failed..

So this year, I don want to make a so-called new year resolution list.

And I am not aiming for any big target or goal anymore.

I will become more down-to-earth.

Why should I worry for what is going to happen in the future?

I shall appreciate this moment.

Left for about 2 weeks before heading back to campus.

At the meanwhile waiting for the result to come also.

A bit nervous le...haha~

But since I tried my best already.

No matter how the result is coming out,

I will improve from time to time.

Little improvement can be my satisfaction of the year.

Anyhow, the first of bad luck in 2011 was my left hand get injured yesterday.

A bit scare when I saw the blood bleeding non-stop on my finger.

But after no scar will left on my thumb.

Luckily I am a right-handed person.

If not I cannot holding a pen and write articles as what I usually do at home

in order to kill my boredom

Next week will be doing CNY shopping with mum.

Hrmm...

Can I request for a new spec?

I shall be going back UTP after CNY

but finally I decided to go back before uni reopens.

Not good to skip so many classes right?

Till then...

Hope it wont be too long until my next post.

Enjoy the rest of our holiday la~

告别2010年

2010-12-17T20:06:00.004+08:00

2010年很快就来到尾声了

该是时候检讨自己在过去一年里的成绩单

我真正想达到的

是在于本身的成长

我还想探索不一样的事物

小时候

我们都巴不得能一夜长大

但是现在20岁的我

反而希望一天能过得比一天更慢

让我能够细细咀嚼生活的美好

即将踏入新的一年

我也要把在2010年的一切包袱，不开心的，

统统放下

新的一年

我要完完全全地独立起来

希望能做自己喜欢的事

尽管是家人不太赞成的事

只是我不想再顺着父母的意愿

我总觉得有些事

应该是顺着自己的本意去做

只要那是对的

那我的坚持

应该没有错吧？

我真的很开心

因为困扰着我一年多的心事

终于终于在几天前释怀了

彻彻底底地释怀了

谢谢你愿意跟我坦诚相谈

其实很意外你还会再找我

原本以为我们就会一直那样下去

一直以来我缺乏的

就是说清楚的勇气

可是现在多了一个朋友

回到原本的那种关系

是最完美的结局

原来我最喜欢的

还是和你谈天的那种感觉

既然知道之后的事情是个错误

那我们就很自然而然的

不会再重蹈覆辙

不知道你会不会看到这一篇文章

但还是要感谢你

我的好朋友

我可以勇于告别2010年的一切

朝着自己订下的新目标

一步一步地完成

而我也不会再有所期待

毕竟还是实际点比较好

希望我的那股热诚

能够持续到2011年的最后一天

你说

我能不能有机会在明年

开始我人生中第一次流浪的初体验呢？

再见了，2010年

（虽然还有半个月的时间

但是我已经迫不及待迎接新一年的到来了！）

流浪的终点

2010-11-29T23:58:00.004+08:00

目前身处于机场

第一次在机场过夜

只为了搭乘明天早上的飞机

尽管我现在已经精疲力尽

可是没关系

反正再过不久就到家了

又完成了一个学期

伸手指算算

我已经完成了一半在utp的旅程

剩下的一半

还有好多好多的更加艰难的未知数

感谢在这个学期每一个陪伴过我，帮助过我的人

这个学期我过得比以往更加更加充实

是你们让我在这个学期留下更多更多美好的回忆

例如：打保龄球 ^^

放心吧~

我回家会好好想想接下来该怎么做

不知道要说些什么了~

归心似箭的心情让我现在坐立不安

很想很想赶快上飞机

感觉一下在高空上俯瞰地面的景色

每当看到许多弯弯曲曲的河流

我就知道家离我不远了

回家的旅程总是很累人

KL->LCCT->Bintulu->Sibu->home

得经过无数个驿站

才能回归到我流浪的终点

家永远都是我最向往的地方

再累也值得

祝大家假期愉快

新年后见

Shivering

2010-11-26T16:52:00.005+08:00

Yeah~

One more paper to go....

but....

most of my coursemates already finished all the papers la...

why why why am I taking French this semester?

T___T

I mmg cannot tahan to see if some1 finished earlier than me

then started to do the packing..

>.<

haiz...

back to the old place la...

but 2day I changed to another place,

fulamak...

damn cold le here

winter season in IRC?

hahahaha~

maybe due to the air cond is facing to my position where I am sitting now..

but..

I am too lazy to move away liao..

have to shut down laptop some more, turning on and bla bla bla~

My brain cells are frozen, totally frozen...

>.<

Turning left side, right side and back side...

why everyone looks so steady and acting normal?

Am I the one abnormal now?

Non-stop shivering...

Studying alone is quite bored la wei~

Miss TSC please come faster....

I am bored.

Need someone to "piak" me!

wakaka~!

have to say goodbye to some of my coursemates for 2 months time..

waaaa...

2 months!

so long~!

>.<

ok la go back to "chewing" French mode..

Please let my "study ohm" come back~

This feeling is so miserable la wei~

;(

无奈~

2010-11-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

无奈中..

永远不要向任何人解释你自己

解释了也没用

有些事情不是像外表看到的那样

原本只是很单纯的事情

总是会因为一些流言蜚语变得复杂

我不喜欢尴尬的感觉

还是保持沉默吧~

应该在乎别人的眼光

而有所避讳吗？

还是继续

清者自清？

2 more papers before going back.

TCJ please add more oil!

Focus yea

累

2010-11-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

我只是累了

想找个肩膀依靠

那种累

是说不出口的累

好像是长年累月累积成的

我以为

累了倒头就睡

醒来就会没事

原来不是的

那种累

是心理上的累

是想得到安抚的累

我还可以继续坚持到来临的星期日吗？

大考之，第二天

2010-11-16T20:32:00.002+08:00

大考第二天 HSE-Health, Safety and Environment

结果印证了我之前说的

Crap, crap and crap

T.T

之前翘课翘到太凶了

自找的

结果温习到凌晨三点

五点半起身

结果有念跟没有念一样

整张试卷都在写着“废话”

哈哈~~

算了

过去了

我也睡了整个下午

什么睡眠债都讨回来了

看完正在看的电影后

又要开始温书了

明天图书馆没开

怎么办？

大考之，第一天

2010-11-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

终于考完了第一科

我这个学期最喜爱的科目之一 Computational Methods

只希望当我的手指在计算机键盘上飞舞时

不会有一个不小心按错某个键盘

从刚开始的学期大家议论纷纷来自印度的讲师独特的“风格”-"shaking head"

到今天终于完成了考试

凭着对数学的热爱

我进了考场

尽了最大的努力

做到最好

只希望我那少了根筋的老毛病-粗心没有再犯

毕竟粗心所导致的后果

我玩不起

T_T

一子错，满盘皆落索

说的就是这个意思

我好担心

如果只是因为小小的错误而损失很多分

我会怪我自己

>.<

偷偷的讲：“其实我还蛮喜欢Narahari的咯~ Moulay，滚一边去~！”

哈哈哈哈~~

明天的HSE

没有十足的把握

只是一味的背，背，再背~

明天不会做的话

也只能靠common sense, crap, crap crap~

哈哈~~

祝我好运吧~

也希望我的背书的记忆力有增无减

今晚是开定夜车了~

明天记得带Safety glasses, lab coat, safety boot, safety gloves...进考场！

哈哈~

大家加油~！

写在大考前

2010-11-12T22:56:00.003+08:00

嗨！

不要怀疑~

我还活着

忙碌又充实的读书日子一天又一天的过去了

还有两天就是大考了

还在努力准备中~

图书馆已经变成我第二个房间了

喜欢在图书馆温书的感觉

看着身边的朋友埋头苦读

至少我不觉得那么孤军奋斗

因为我们都有同一个目标

只是。。

说实话

呆得太久还真的会开始觉得麻木

准时10点报到，10点回家

反复重复同样的生活节奏五天了

总觉得

怎么时间过得好快好快？！

今天

忽然间有种很想要放弃的感觉

看到手机荧幕上自己给自己加油打气的话

所有的不停叫我放弃的邪恶念头又挥之而去了

我还只差那么一点点

努力了这么久

到现在才来放弃

我不甘心也不情愿

再忍一下下吧~

为了自己，也为了爸妈

每天早上，都有一通爸爸叫我起床的电话

每一天这样的开始，是幸福的

爸爸随之而说的那句：“努力念书，要乖！”

让我更想家了

总是在眼泪还没有落下前，以哽咽的声音结束通话。

我不知道结果会是如何

但至少我付出过，努力过

我只是不想当我往后回顾以前在大学生活时

脑海里浮现的是:“过得很荒唐”的想法。。

大家加油吧~

尽力而为

不要想太多

不要要求太高

努力换来的，终究是开花的结果。

一切顺利，加油 ^^

p/s: This is my 300th blog posts! =D

倒数

2010-11-07T16:33:00.005+08:00

我把23颗我最爱吃的杏仁巧克力放入罐子中

一天吃一颗

一直到吃到最后一颗的那一天

我就知道

是回家的时候了

归心似箭的心情

就像黑巧克力般苦涩

我很想很想家了

还剩2个星期

23天

552个小时

33120分钟

1987200秒

我会等

耐心的等

等待归家的那一天

最后一次狂欢

2010-11-07T02:02:00.002+08:00

刚从怡保回来

时钟指向凌晨两点钟

在怡保狂欢了快17个小时！

回到来已经是疲惫不堪

但心情还是很亢奋。

今天的怡保之行有我，sy,nic,ssl,yc,lawrence和yh

两辆车就这样浩浩荡荡往目的地前往

一大清早就有有港式点心烧卖作为早餐

7个人竟然吃了近RM140的早餐！

炸到。。

T.T

接着去修剪头发

然后再等着另外一位朋友的当儿

在理发店上网乱乱spam人家Fb的wall

有够无聊一下~

接着玩了两场的保龄球再加上四个小时的马拉松式唱K

然后带着空空如也的肚子去吃火锅，重点是，免费的~！

吃到快撑不下了

朋友又提议去打保龄球

我当然举手举脚赞成~

自从第一次玩保龄球开始

我喜欢full strikes的感觉

很有成就感

我追求的也是那种感觉

不过最喜欢的还是可以和朋友们一起为对方打气的气氛

反倒是唱K

可能唱腻了

没有特别兴奋的感觉

玩了5场的保龄球

意犹未尽

但已经累垮了~

在Study week之前让自己那么放肆地狂欢

是给自己充电的时间

也为了奖励自己能够继续在上个那么忙碌到焦头烂额的星期里生存下来

这是大考前最后一次狂欢

狂欢后，是时候付出努力和苦劳的时候

期待着，下一次能够抛开学业烦恼的另一个狂欢

我要收起贪玩的心

认认真真地为自己的目标努力

狂欢的日子

总是要在完成重要测验考试后

才显得珍贵和难忘

大家加油吧~！

图书馆见咯 ^^

Last day of lecture week

2010-11-04T02:28:00.003+08:00

Finally all the tests, assignments and events had came to the end.

Anyhow this is just a comma, not yet a full stop for this semester.

Am mentally and physically tired now.

Not yet recovered from the hecticness of tests.

3 tests in a row can really made people exhausted and feel like want to die.

T.T

After the 2 more classes on tomorrow,

I am officially entering my 10 days of study week.

For the coming study week I dont have any planning yet.

IRC will be my priority place to stay at but sometimes I cannot bear with the coldness inside, especially at night.

And I cannot hug my pillow while studying in IRC.

This is the main reason I feel like dont want to go IRC.

But in room, my cozy bed always tempting me to sleep.

Where to go then?

haha~

Many people are going back home for study week

how I wish I could be one of them too.

Want to arrange the timetable for study week

but I dont have mood and concentration to do it.

Let me have a rest for at least one day.

One day free from academic stuffs.

I wanna go Ipoh sing K, play bowling, drink Starbucks, eat Secret Recipe, eat sushi, eat pasta, shopping and cut my fringe!

Hopefully this coming Saturday can go out la.

If not I have to sneak out during Euphonious appreciation dinner to at least cut my fringe and make a quick shopping, means just grab anything I need without looking at the price.

LOL~

Starting tomorrow I want to find back my concentration and study mood~

Final is coming lo~

Hopefully I can spend it wisely.

Good night.

那一年的我

2010-10-31T00:45:00.004+08:00

想念那一年的我

那一个留着一头长发的我

那一个扎着马尾上学的我

曾经是那么自由挥霍青春的我

7年前毅然剪短的长发

现在我要慢慢把它给留长回来

为的是

遵守对某人的承诺

虽然已经没有坚持下去的必要

但是

我还是想做回

当初那个扎着马尾的自己

那是一段我追不回的回忆

所以我只是想找回当初的那种感觉

那种

可以尽情挥霍青春的感觉

还有一个月

2010-10-29T15:41:00.004+08:00

周末了。。

终于可以喘口气了。。

过去的一个星期

不知道我是怎么熬过来的

过着每天少过四个小时睡眠的日子

折磨的是精神

疲惫的是身躯

下个星期是最后一个Lecture week了..

永远有考不完的试和功课等着我

星期一：Lab Test

星期二：HSE Test

星期三：Thermo Test

在那之后

我就要收拾心情准备大考了

很快的

我就要结束这个学期的课业

真的好快好快。。

考试时间表今天出炉了

没什么好抱怨了

只希望能尽快考完

然后放长假回家！

距离现在还有一个月

我就可以回家了～

这个周末

只不过是让我能有充足睡眠之余，

还得日读夜读的日子罢了～

还有一个月

就让我再为剩余的一个月

好好打拚吧～

再。。

2010-10-24T00:25:00.002+08:00

再怎么寂寞就好

再怎么失落都好

再怎么伤心都好

再怎么思想负面都好

再怎么迷失自己都好

我都不可以让自己倒下

因为我输不起也没本钱输得起

Add oil!

2010-10-19T20:42:00.003+08:00

Current desktop wallpaper

~Eiffel Tower!~

The purpose doing so is just reminding myself about my dream.

Yea. A dream to Paris, France in one day....

I need to work hard now and earn enough money in the future in order to visit there.

Terengganu field trip inspired me a lots after having a rough idea on my future working place

if, I am still choosing my way to become a chemical engineer....

Will blog about my flied trip after I done with my events and tests, perhaps.

Life is getting tougher and tougher.

One test on Friday and I just wanna start study...

T.T

Coming nights full of meetings and I just can study as much as I can whenever I am free.

Trisemester system is applied starting next semester

and I promise to myself no more involvement in events excluding EDX.

Just simply love this event...

Ok la..Wanna go study le..

Wish me good luck in my coming events...

First time given such post..

Nervous...

and a bit shocked...

O.o

Coming Thursday French Drama presentation

Test and briefing on Friday night...

phew~~

Still in the progress of preparing

Good luck and ganbatte!

Oh yea...wish me can stay awake late in the night too...

Handmade coffee iced is prepared and stored in the refrigerator

let's burn the midnight oil!

T.T

Add oil ^^

Coming weeks...

2010-10-14T23:08:00.005+08:00

Thursday.

The first day of 10th Convofair.

The day with lab and 2 hours French class.

The day with a meeting at the night for the preparation of coming event.

For the past 11 weeks of studies,

I was always in the mode of free from stress.
Can watch so many series some more.
T.T

But now, the end of week 11 indicates the end of my so-called "senang-lenang" life too.

For the coming weeks....

Week 12
- Preparation for EDX, almost having meeting everyday with all the paper works
- Need to in charge for participant briefing (>.<)
- French drama
- SEPRO Test 2

Week 13
- EDX days + The Chronicler day.
- Full day lab with CM test 2 on the same day (wondering how am I gonna go through that particular day? T.T )

Week 14
- Lab test
- Free from events. Start to prepare for final exam.

Week 15
- Study week. (My last study week perhaps?! =.="!! )

Week 16 onwards
- Final exam!

Lastly,
home sweet home!

3 more subjects with undecided date of test 2 yet.

Hope I just have enough time to prepare for all my test 2.

The critical period commences starting tomorrow.

Willing or not, I still have to hold on and go through all these with patience.

I must have faith in myself!

I don have time to be wasted on nonsense things and useless matters anymore.

Time is definitely more important than money for me right now.

Can imagine my further posts will be fulled of stressful descriptions.

This is the only place where I can throw everything I don like.

一字记之曰：忍！

加油！！

算了

2010-10-13T22:40:00.004+08:00

刚刚泡好的咖啡喝起来特别苦涩

是换了咖啡粉牌子的缘故

还是因为心情不好

喝什么都觉得很难喝

一再告诉自己不要介意不要介意

可是心里还是觉得不好受

没办法

本来我就是一个可有可无的角色

想这样多也没用

只会让别人觉得我很小气

算了真的算了

算了喝不下这么难喝的咖啡

没必要跟自己的胃过不去

不喜欢喝就倒掉

不开心就算了

反正会过去的

算了

10年

2010-10-10T23:37:00.004+08:00

夜晚11.30pm

手机响起了

抬头一看

手机荧幕上出现了熟悉的名字和手机号码

会心一笑

手指按了解锁盘

是一封蛮长的信息

内容不外乎是嘘寒问暖，关怀鼓励的话

原来有个人唠叨自己的感觉很不错

心里头暖暖地

是因为在乎

所以才会唠叨吧？

10年的友谊

得来不易

这份友谊

还能走过多少个10年？

总是在适当的时候收到她的信息

总是在恰好的时候让我得以抒发情绪

总是一封内容很简单的信息让我豁达开朗

谢谢你

祝远方的你

晚安咯~

10.10.10

2010-10-10T23:07:00.005+08:00

What so special about today is just the date with 10.10.10

It happens only once per thousand of years.

But for me, it was just an ordinary day with normal routines.

Some more I felt sad because again my weekends ended without I realized about it.

10.10.10 is just...

A day with boredom

A day with emo-ness striking on me again

A day I am suffering by feeling unwell

A day I failed to finish what I am supposed to do

It was just a boring day!!!

>.<

4 more weeks before study week

but I feel like want to start skipping classes.

(head shaking and start to give myself some lectures..)

T.T

Dont say happy 10.10.10 to me

because I am not happy at all.

悠闲的星期六夜晚

2010-10-09T21:32:00.004+08:00

星期六的夜晚

抛开课业书本

捧着吴若权的新作《爱要报喜不抱忧》

让自己真正的松懈一下

有多久没有像现在这样

听着歌从第一页慢慢地翻阅到最后一页

最后满足地合上书本

细细回味书中每一则小故事
很多次都只是趁忙里偷闲时匆匆翻阅几章
我还是比较喜欢静下来
慢慢地从第一页翻阅到最后一页
其中没停歇没打扰

此书是帮朋友买的

或许我也该为自己买一本

作为珍藏

喜欢吴若权对爱情的理性分析

喜欢藤井树对爱情的单纯

喜欢张小娴对爱情一针见血的剖析

各有千秋

每本作品都让我爱不释手

只是最近觉得有点偏好于吴若权的书作

爱情还是保持着理性去看待比较好

太过于单纯会被蒙蔽双眼

太过于一针见血就看不见爱情美好的一面

保持中立理智理性去看待

才能看得见幸福的时候。

有时候，“报喜不抱忧”很单纯地，

就是一种很正向的人生态度而已，提醒我们：

只要凡事都往好处想，就会跟着幸福的脚步往好处走。

-吴若权《爱要报喜不抱忧》-

~很可惜，这本书并不属于我 T.T~

颓废了两天

明天该收拾心情继续冲刺

下一个的悠闲星期六夜晚

会是什么时候？

压力球

2010-10-06T15:23:00.006+08:00

大学今天又举办了新的活动--Career Placement Week

很多外面的大公司（包括电子业，资讯和石油业等）都来到大学开展览摊位

目标当然是那些即将毕业或正要前去实习的大学生们

我还在大学第二年，虽说暂时不需要担心关于工作的问题

只是既然那么热闹

还是会前往参观

拿了些手册和一个很特别的小赠品

其实我们的目的还是去拿这个特别的小赠品

~猜猜看是什么？~

就是它了

看起来像粒球

不能当网球般来打

握在手里的感觉很轻

而且一捏紧它

一松手

又恢复原来的球形

你猜到它真正的功能是什么吗？

虽然我不知道它的真正名称是什么

但从它的功能看来

我帮它取了个名字叫做--压力球

当我们很有压力时

总是会握紧自己的拳头

有种想捶墙的感觉

减压的压力有很多种

用力掐紧它

就像我们紧握拳头般

掐得越用力

代表我们正在发泄着我们的压力或不满

压力球的好处是

你掐得它再怎么用力都好

实际上你只是感觉到自己使劲全力

好像要把它捏的面目全非

就像我们很生气很有压力总会想破坏一些东西一样

只是你再怎么使劲全力

再怎么把它捏的球不像球

一松手

它还是会恢复原来的球形

而自己

也得到一种莫名的松懈感

很多时候压力是自己给自己的

因为对自己对某些事对某些人

我们有所期待期望

又或者是别人对我们的期望

一旦没法达到

我们就会很生气很有压力

我们好像都在为了要满足别人对我们的期望而努力着

总是要做到最完美的我们

有没有想过其实这个世界是不完美的？

可是就是因为不完美

所以才有想要变得更完美的心态

是不是我们都喜欢自找麻烦？

压力可以是好事也可以是坏事

压力可以是一种推动力也可以让你一撅不振

看你自己怎么去拿捏和应付

但愿我不会很常用到它

无聊时

握在手心把玩着

也不错

有压力时

使劲掐紧它

让自己得到发泄

也好过什么事都搁在心里

没有任何用处时

拿来当装饰品也不错~

哈哈~

睡到自然醒

2010-10-05T08:54:00.003+08:00

人生最幸福的事之一

莫过于是可以睡到自然醒

足足睡够八个小时

有多久没有这样了

即使是周末

我也没睡到自然醒

烦人的闹钟总是在特定时间响起

T.T

一大早起身

推开窗口

伸个懒腰

大口大口呼吸清新空气

顿时精神百倍

美好的一天

又开始咯~~

4/10

2010-10-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

Fuuyooh!

Mission accomplished!

Done the quiz that more to like a test actually.

Assignments submission date have been postponed some more..

Freaking tired now.

Imagine I was facing with numbers and fingers kept on pressing calculator for all the time I am in front of my desk.

Just for my quiz...

quiz like test, test like final..final like...??

compute this and compute that...

making my days dizzy..

but somehow I like CM

maybe because it is related to maths.

I wish to go bed early than ever.

But later still have event things to be settled.

Hope can finish it asap so that I can sleep before 11pm.

Tonight I dont want to study

Even though I got French quiz tomorrow...

hrmm..

never mind la I wake up early to do revision tomorrow.

Finally no Monday blues mood today!

Indeed a fruitful Monday.

New week started.

And I just realized I have exactly ONE month before final and

around TWO months before going back home.

O.o

Means I am gonna end my Second Year First Sem soon?

Did I sound happy??

haha~~

Lazy weekends

2010-10-03T14:50:00.005+08:00

Totally lost concentration.

My eyes are tiring.

My hands are shaking and lack of energy to do writing anymore.

And I even carelessly knocked over the cup, leaving the floor covered with milk.

Some of my notes also kena..

>.<

My room now is fulled with the smell of milk.

Spent quite a long time to clean up the floor

and also the notes.

Sigh..

I wish I have more than 24 hours per day.

Lazy mood still on but I tried not to sleep right now

Let me at least finish doing few tasks first.

For me

weekend is just the days that I don have to attend lectures

but stay in room to catch up everything I left behind...

PHT assignment, SEPRO assignment and CM quiz..

all have to get done by tomorrow..

Jiak lat lor~~

Hoping all the best for tomorrow...

my weekends just gone like that...

haiz.....

空间

2010-10-02T13:28:00.004+08:00

对我而言

可以在房间开着大大声的歌曲

随之哼唱

边温书做功课

是我享受美好一天的开始

至少我不会感到那么孤单

我只是希望可以在我需要100%专注的时候

可以不受打扰

希望我睡觉的时候

可以不被一些没必要的杂音吵醒

我只是需要在某些时候

可以有属于自己一个人的空间

如果现在可以下一场大雨

那我的心情一定格外开心

下着雨的星期六下午

一定会让人更放松~

请下雨，好吗？

October

2010-10-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

It's October now!

But I still hardly recall what had I done in September..

repeating the same daily routines as a student..

nothing much..

but undergoes some critical problems..

some already solved some still hanging on and I feel like dont want to face it.

Lack of motivation after came back from KL for mid-sem break

too long of break usually made me feel very lazy to catch up everything

maybe I need extra time to get used to it again..

perhaps next week everything will back to normal mode

here comes the weekends again..

Weekends is always my favourite period

because I can use it to get all jobs done

and recall back what had I done for the previous week.

Ipoh outgoing tomorrow cancelled

because I want to save money for my field trip to Terengganu.

Cant wait to go!^^

Hoping all the best in October.

Coming test 2 season, events, drama.....

I need to have a strong mindset..

I had made a good starting,

so must keep it up until the end of this semester.

Faced some little obstacles..

but I can work harder to overcome them, right?

October, I am gonna make you a fruitful month and enjoyable month at the same time!

Wake me up when September ends..

2010-09-29T22:40:00.006+08:00

Done with all test 1..

Totally relieved...

2 more days to go before another awesome weekends to come..

tomorrow is the last day of September 2010

soooooo fast

O.o

hrmm..

not really awesome..

Many works are still pending..

need to catch up SEPRO and CM

oh yea..THERMO also..

although I just having my test 2 hours ago.

but all the delta H delta U delta are so confusing

at first they were like alien language for me

now a bit better already

Among SEPRO, PHT and THERMO

these main 3 subjects with the most credit hours for this semester,

THERMO is the hardest for me to understand.

Next time during lecture should close my eyes or try not to look at my lecturer's face

hahaha~~

Because most of the time I just stared at his face like an idiot,

with the saliva flowing from my mouth

(ok this one is seriously just a joke..

I didnt so "xia shoi")

CM Quiz on Monday

French quiz every week and every lecture..

I don want to miss any single mark for French anymore.

Promised to someone that I can get an 'A' for French

Although many seniors said it is very hard to get an 'A' for French

Am I manage to do it?

Since allowance will be coming in tomorrow,

should I go Ipoh this weekend?

Better don because seriously I need to save money

otherwise I cannot go back during coming sem break..

no one sponsor me for the flight ticket ma....

some more,

in the middle of October I am going for a field trip to Terengganu too!

Yes!

Finally after 2 years studying about chemical engineering course,

I can open my eyes with the real industry working place!

2 more weeks 2 more weeks....

I wanna eat keropok lekor^^

And I always have a thought that if I start saving money from now,

is it possible enough for me to go to France for my graduation trip??

What do you think?

Let's wait and see!

领悟

2010-09-29T00:17:00.004+08:00

我一直深信这句话：

“不要期待别人了解你的难过。”

所以我表露出难过的时刻少之又少

再不开心都好

我也不会对你袒露

除了发信息给身在远方的你之外

一时间还真的找不到身边的任何一个人倾诉

刚才绍倩帮我把以上的那句话加了下文：

“但请期待懂你的人明白你的难过。”

这句下文给了我很大的启示。

知己难寻

但是跌跌撞撞

还是会找到的

明天自有明天的忧虑

我会保持着开朗的心情

我做了我该做的

就足够了

当然我还是不要求每个人懂我

因为我也不可能完全懂得任何一个你

人总要学着和寂寞相伴

长大了

就要有承受寂寞的能耐

[寂寞永远是最佳的伙伴

因为它不会遗弃你

除非你遗弃它在先。]

(CJ , 2010)

生命

2010-09-27T17:14:00.004+08:00

谢谢你让我有所领悟

事实是残酷的

无可奈何

除了默默接受

我别无选择

往后的每一天

我会为自己而活

感谢每天醒来还能深呼吸的恩典

感谢生命中的每一个过客，过程

感谢每一个让我成长的人，事，物

生命是自己的

要对自己的人生负责

空白或充满色彩

由我们自己做主

我会一点一滴努力建筑

属于我自己的人生

;(

2010-09-26T14:27:00.000+08:00

终究要亲自受伤，

才会学着聪明.

一个人的世界

2010-09-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

突然觉得自己像只无头苍蝇

只是一味盲目地让自己变得忙碌

却渐渐地失去了方向

是累人的生活才一点一滴地磨灭我的毅力

剩下来的足以支撑下半个学期吗？

我喜欢忙碌的生活

那会让我随时处于最佳状态

只是久而久之

就像一株干枯的植物少了灌溉

就等同于少了让自己继续努力的毅力

很羡慕别人总是娱乐多于寄情于学业

我，两者间总得不到平衡

总有一方注定要被牺牲的

我现在很尽量在两者间取得平衡

简单的娱乐像休闲时捧着一本小说阅读

或逛个街看场电影品尝美食

都会让我有一种充电的感觉

只是充电器用久了

也会有能量耗尽的一天

有一种感觉

自我保护的意识越来越强烈

不再那么热心于某些我现在认为没必要干涉的事

对于身边的人，事，物

能不理会的就不理会

之前学到教训了

太过于热心结果换来的却是伤害和冷淡的反应

可能是我思想太负面吧~

受过伤等待伤口痊愈后

我从此绝口不提

更甭说面对事实

我知道那根刺会永远停留在那

只是要彻底拔掉它需要莫大的勇气

我缺乏的正是那勇气

我的世界变得越来越渺小

会不会到最后只剩下我一个人

一个人的世界

是寂寞比较多

还是自由多一点？

或许我需要倒过来想一切的时间

我知道我可以做到

只是那背后付出的代价

太大了

但是

人都是自私的

不是吗？

Happy Birthday NPY

2010-09-20T21:43:00.006+08:00

This post is dedicated to someone who is having her big day today.

She is my course mate, my ah jie,
someone I get started to close with since previous semester.
Here she is, Ng Pei Ying.
=)

Was a bit guilty not to give her birthday surprise right at 12o'clock.
So I chose to count down with her in her room.
Maybe she did expect something from us
but she didn't know actually our birthday planning for her is a special dinner at KFC.
But somehow our plan changed on the way going out.
Was heading to Pizza Hut in Batu Gajah.
It was raining very very heavily at that time,
with the scary lightnings and thunders some more.
Some roads were seriously flooded with water.
Can imagine how heavy was the rain right?
But no worries, we have a very MACHO driver aka PAPA
who can drove SLOW and steady while wearing the sunglasses.
CCK6929 wan sui lo :D

Fortunately we arrived safely at our destination.
Ordered 2 LARGE pizzas and one regular pizza.
Seems it was raining outside so we at first said to her:
" Sorry o , no cake. Only got pizza so cut the pizza as like you cut the birthday cake."

Then before we were just about to go back,
Siang Leng said he wanted to go and looking for lanterns.
Meng Kiat was following him, too.
So the rest of us just waiting in the Pizza Hut for their return
Even I myself never expect their return were together with a birthday cake too!
I am pretty sure the birthday girl will even feel more surprised!
Haha~
By seeing her face expression then we knew already la.

But I never expect the moment she opened the gifts chosen by me,
the first word she said was:" OMG~ Exactly same as the one my bro gave me last time...!"
Hahaha~~
Maybe I should get to know her bro since both of us so xing ling xiang tong.
XD
I hope she loves the special gift-wristband with her name on it.
Be prepared for another birthday gift next year yea.

Some words for you:
" 20 years old le..finally you are same age with me. =)
Do have confidence in yourself.
Believe you can achieve your target with your own efforts.
When you emo, can gtalk me, sms me, or call me.
Ganbatte in everything =)
Wish you all the best for this semester.
I know you have a target to be fulfilled.
Work hard together ^^
Lastly, I still like your new hairstyle...
LOL!"

Happy 20th Birthday to you Ng Pei Ying

=)

p/s: All the photos taken just now were using SengYee's camera.
So no photos here. Haha~

My blog is Carbon Neutral

2010-09-16T15:05:00.002+08:00

Found this while reading someone's blog.

Imagine you can see green plant grows in your blog.

Suit my blog title better right?

No more green leaves, but green trees.

Let's join to make your blog environmental friendly!

Pasta！ ♥

2010-09-15T00:28:00.006+08:00

My current new liking--> Pasta!

Prefer tomato sauce rather than white sauce.

But cannot eat too often.

Once per month is more than enough.

~Is my photographing skill getting better day by day?~

I love the design of the lamp, and the pictures too.

Made me feel like sitting in a high-class restaurant (overseas punya)

Romantic kan?

Too bad those sat in front of me was a girl..

hahaha~~

~Black tea~

~ Pasta with tomato sauce+sausages ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥~

An enjoyable day with new shoes+new liking.

But I also spent a lot.

=.="

Please don ask me go out anymore

until the next monthly allowance is bank in into my account.

haha~